Monday, November 5, 2012

I Was Fourteen (Still No Date but around March '06)

What up I just finished my parts of speech test. I got a five out of twenty it totally sucks and I have that biology test after school today. I am going to fail that too i think because I have not really studied and I hate it. We are going to watch a movie now, write later.

(Later...)      

Well guess what? I am out of school and I just finished the test. I bet I failed since I guessed on most of the answers. Well it was bound to happen I am going to "Dun Dun Dun" summer school!! Even though I don't want to go. I want to spend my summer with my friend doing the usual shopping, hanging out and sleep overs. HA HA HA HA yeah right! Like she would ever be caught dead doing any of that. I can't take it anymore...even though I didn't come to school on Monday I already want the week to end. Guess what? I bought the wrong copy of HP and the Goblet of Fire! I bought the one disc edition instead of the two disc special edition! That's what happens when your rushing and your mother is waiting outside with the car still running -_-' Now I have to go and save my money and buy the 2-disc DVD Special Edition Boxed Set.

Disclaimer: Got this off google images is not mine.

I hope it doesn't cost more than $30. I miss ever one at my old school even Weirdo Dude. I hate it here I still spend all of my free time alone. I have no friends and I'm pretty sure every one knows it and feels sorry for me. God I am such a loser I am starting to get depressed again. My mom says we might go to Disneyland this week! I hope so I am really excited I hope she is not lying to us. I get so disappointed when she lies to us I actually feel my heart break. I know its weird but I can't help it. She gets our hopes up, my bothers and mine, then we feel so desolate and destroyed. Write in you later of tomorrow I have nothing more to say. By Bye! That is all my dear friend

I Was Fourteen (Again No Date)

I didn't write yesterday because I didn't get angry but I will write later right now I am still in school in 6th period English to be exact. I have a test after school today (geometry test) god I hate math so I will be home after school today. I stopped being depressed I think it was because I was missing alot of school, well now I'm back! Write later!

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(Later...)

What up!? I'm back like I said I would be. It's cool if you didn't believe me I have had other journals before and I only write in them like three times and then throw them out. It's 8:04pm right now and we are watching a soap opera called "Contra Viento y Marea"

 and its getting interesting it's going to finish next Monday 20th of March. Today my day was good except after school when I had to go take my geometry test. I failed it. I did not understand anything! Nothing at all. I really wanted to pass I really did but nothing sticks I wish I were Asian they have big brains and even better soap operas it is even better even the holidays. I have a Chapter 10 Biology test tomorrow after school. I'll write soon I hope! That is all dear friend.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

I Was Fourteen (No date)

I don't know why but I feel depressed. A few minutes ago I felt like dying, I feel like that a lot. I felt happy for a moment but now all of the sudden I'm upset again. Screw this it feels even more real after writing it down on paper. Never mind, last Tuesday was my last day at school I haven't gone to school in exactly a week. I'm going to have to face my reality soon though. I don't want to but I have to the mother is making me. She just doesn't understand my life. She thinks its all fun and games that I have friends at my new school but I don't I walk around during break all by myself and I eat my lunch alone in the girls locker room. She promised me I'd be allowed to transfer back to my old high school but this morning she grabbed my hopes floating above the clouds and brought then crash landing back to earth. I hate my life it probably should have ended years ago when my parental unit started breaking up and stayed up all hours of the night fighting but my younger brothers saved my life. I know in their own way they look up to me even if we don't show it. Since, this family seems to be emotionally disabled. I love them and for them I live, only for them. If anything happened to them something would happen to me too. That's all my dear friend.
"Paper is more patient than man." (I don't remember who wrote that but I've always remembered it.)